Lost and found
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When I lose a beloved, familiar object, there's a sequence: the initial sinking, the reminiscence, the futile hope that it might still turn up, the eventual wistful letting go.
About five years ago Le Duc gave me a beautiful turquoise ring on Christmas. The next day I wore it to a yoga class at my health club, removed it along with my watch, and left both in the studio when class ended. I never saw them again. My distress was deepened by knowing that somebody must have picked them up, and ignored my pleading signs (with offer of reward) for their return.
Belette mentioned the sick feeling she had losing a diamond bracelet she loved. I had immediate empathy: I've felt that specific nausea, a depth of regret that I judge as superficial- it's only a thing, after all- but cannot shake.
Scarves, gloves and umbrellas are loss-prone, but I have also lost jewelry, books, bags, and the odd article of clothing. The moment of acceptance, that it is utterly gone, varies from minutes to months. Replacing the article does not circumvent mourning.
Some stow objects in a safety-deposit box or pack them away, chanting "what if, what if". But it might as well be gone already, as one is held hostage to the fear of loss. You know you have, but cannot enjoy, the possession. In Anne Tyler's "The Accidental Tourist", Macon Leary advises the traveler to "journey with nothing he could not bear to lose".
Caution is fine, but being fearful is chokes off life, sentences us to the sure and safe.
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A cabbie drove 25 miles to return a sport coat my nephew left in his cab. I wouldn't dream of "finder's keepers", knowing how deeply I have appreciated these acts of kindness.
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I wish I would find my scarf.
Comments
We all have our "ones that got away." Mine include a couple of beautiful silver handcrafted bracelets (lost due to inadequate toggle clasps) and a favorite watch (left at the gym). Such is life, I guess.
I still love to collect and use my nice pieces so I have to accept the possibility they may get damaged or broken in the process.
The Buddhists have a concept where they think of the bowl as already broken, as it will be someday. Nothing lasts, nothing stays the same.
Hope your scarf turns up.
Northmoon: Thank you for contributing the Buddhist concept, it encourages one to put something to use, instead of hoarding.
i love the buddhist concept. my family refers to this as "the white silk robe." when my parents had been married only a year or two, my father was in hong kong and bought my mother a white silk robe. having two very small children at the time (and later acquiring 6 others), she put it away for the day when it could be safely worn. 20 years and several moves later, she finally took it out to don it, only to find it crumbled and shredded in her hands. so now, whenever someone says "Oh, it's too nice, I'll save it." we caution, "remember the white silk robe!" and use the item. if we lose it, or it breaks, at least you got some pleasure out of it first.
Theft is another level of loss, scarier because someone is in your home. Cybill wrote a great post about this last year- the theft of jewelry she had not worn enough.
Wendy: Aaargh, I hope so too.
I once had a pair of Tiffany earrings and took them out - must have placed them on the Sunday papers. I threw the papers out on Monday and never recovered the earrings-saddened me.