This post owes its rantiness to a recent entry from Deja Pseu on her menopausal weight struggle.
I went to my doctor yesterday for a routine physical, and though in excellent health, she said losing some weight would be good for my heart. This was delivered in an as-your-doctor-I-have-to-say-this tone, and she admitted her own battles.
Sidebar: my resting pulse, blood pressure and cholesterol levels are perfect, and I do not have a history of heart disease in my family.
She reduced hers over the past year (though she looks the same to me). I asked her how she did it, and she said she eats very little meat, no fruit, no starch, no sweets and a mostly raw diet.
I felt my spirit sink; I cannot face nearly 40 more years (if I live as long as my mother) without a blueberry pancake, a truffle or a plate of real pit bar-be-que. Enchiladas. Sacher Torte. Risotto.
Weight Watchers like to say Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels. Which is fine if a size 10 is what you live for, versus the next size or two. But I say, Lots Tastes As Good as Twenty Extra Pounds Feel.
Because I have been thin, naturally in my 20s and through diets later. The As Good As Thin Feels was buying into a norm that was, as Deja Pseu says, impossible and anxiety-inducing to maintain. At a higher weight, I feel fine.
I left her office, walking briskly, and joined my DH and one son for an Indian buffet dinner. I did not have a beer, only a conceptual serving of chicken curry, and heaps of veg. And quite a lot of garlic naan. Papadams.
There was ice cream in alluring flavours: pistachio, strawberry, almond with cardamom- I had a scoop, strictly for the calcium.
I went to bed contemplating Noreen, my doc, for whom I feel gratitude and affection. I want to be a good patient, but I am going to be her Amy Winehouse case: yes, I been bad.
My goal is not a weight number, it is instead for 20% more discipline, smaller portions, and borrowing a guideline from the Michael Pollen book, In Defense of Food: If you grandparents did not recognize it as food, do not eat it.